R.I.P. Tupac Shakur

11 years ago today, Tupac Shakur was gunned down in yet another senseless black-on-black murder, one that remains unsolved to this day by our fine police forces. You’ll hear a lot of things from both “sides” — that he invited it with his aggressive lyrics, or alternatively, that he was but an artist with a facade necessary to sell records — but as is almost always the case, the truth lies somewhere in the middle. It’s ridiculous that an art form as poetic and expressive as hip-hop, which has the power to illuminate the stench of poverty and hopelessness of second class citizenship to an apathetic, complacent constituency who otherwise would turn a blind eye to it, devolved into a machismo-driven jigaboo spend-off, complete with thoughtless anger and lack of self-preservation. Sure, many people can’t stand hip-hop, and for a variety of reasons, most of them understandable. But the fact remains that it has a reason for being. And it’s sad to me that so many forces conspire to eradicate it.

If I am going to suppose that a murder of a black rap star by another black man is a result of forces outside of such passable concepts as “gang war” and “that’s what black people do”, I probably should explain myself. The rap game isn’t representative of “black culture”, as many would believe. It’s representative of what rich people think people with expendable income want to see rich people who used to be poor doing. Upper class record executives know they can sell records to middle class kids who want to pretend they’re lower class scrappers by listening to people who used to be lower class scrappers pretending to be upper class high-lifers. Confused? That’s how they want you to be.

Black music in America used to be more tolerable to the white masses, and for good reason. There used to be signs of progress in society, and the accompanying patience manifested itself in the creative flourishes that give jazz its smooth caress. It simultaneously conveyed patience, desire, and faith. Jazz was inventive and impromptu, in stark contrast to the piano driven predictability of the time. Then race relations stopped improving as both “sides” dug their trenches, and black music became more about expressing despair, anger, and an increasing intolerance of the ruling class, whose callousness was increasing exponentially. White America’s “I can’t see you, homeless man,” walk-by was met with black America’s “Hey, jackass, I KNOW you see me!”

Is it really that hard to understand that the art people produce reflects their own feelings about their environment? So far, our best response has been to minstrelize them so it’s easier to either ignore or mock them. And make no mistake, in the record industry, underground sales don’t mean jack. It’s a numbers game, and white America has it rigged. So we’ve reached a point where we publicize and buy a trivialized version of what is really a worthwhile endevour. We want to hear about guns and weed and fuck you bitch. We don’t want to hear about how there are cockroaches in your sink or how your parents died of AIDS or how you want to go to college. Yes, there are guns and weed and fuck you bitch in the American slums that house a disproportionately high percentage of black people. But there are also cockroaches in their sinks and parents that die of AIDS and kids that are trying to get into college. In an unfortunate turn of events, one of the things we like hearing about is self-destruction. My theory is that it makes it easier for us to marginalize people if we think they don’t even want to help themselves. And what better way to project that image than to market it through their own music?

This false impression and its resulting aftermath were bad enough when we at least had a guilty conscience but didn’t do anything about it. However, any scan of the landscape reveals we’re in Fox News America now. Rich white Christians are the new victims. The world is stacked against them. Screw those damn minorities for their longing to be equal, because us white folk aren’t as more equal as we used to be. And if us O’Reilly fans want to know about being black, we’ll laugh at Nelly talking about champagne instead of reading Ralph Ellison.

2Pac’s death anniversary is but my shoehorn forcing this post into the boot of my expressive cagalogue. But sometimes you need an excuse to say what you’ve been wanting to say for a while. R.I.P.

Guano: Why does bat crap get its own name?

Why, during the thousands of times per year when referring to bat feces, do we call it guano? What’s so incredible about bat shit that it gets its own name? In my hours of research into this topic (aka googling guano and clicking on the wiki link), I discovered that seabird and seal poop is also called guano. (As an aside, I wonder if seals roll their eyes when some kid points to their guano and says ‘eww, look mommy, a seal turd!’) But I’ve only ever heard it refer to to bat droppings. So despite its slightly expanded technical use, the popular lexicon has designated bat excrement, and only bat excrement, as worthy of being called guano. Those bats must think their guano don’t stink.

Tailgate menu

This coming Saturday will be the first tailgate of the year that I’m going to cook for. The last two years, I’ve been using a smoker, a fryer, or a grill to cook for a fairly large group of people. We’ve done smoked standing rib roast of pork and beef, steaks, smoked boston butt (barbecue) with red, vinegar, and white sauces, smoked chicken, grilled chicken, fried chicken wings, smoked turkey, fried turkey, grilled pork chops, atomic buffalo turds, brunswick stew, chili, meatballs, and several other dishes. I’ve smoked salmon but only for myself and TGAW. I have not yet done lamb, venison, bison, or beef brisket, though I would like to.

Usually, what I cook is influenced by the game time. If it’s a night game, I have time to make something that takes longer, like brisket or boston butt. If it’s a noon game, I can only do something that takes a couple of hours or less. Saturday’s game against Ohio is at 1:30, so I have some time, but not forever. We have enough time to not make the grill necessary, it’s too warm still for stews and too nice out to need to use the fryer, so it’ll be the smoker probably. Any ideas? My instinct is lamb, but TGAW’s a wuss and probably won’t eat it. Plus I have other friends who are kind of picky.

I wish we had a good butcher around here.

Road Trip!

So, TGAW and I are heading down to the CLT (sounds pervy…perfect!) this afternoon. Friends down there are ‘hosting’ some of us Blacksburgers for the weekend due to Saturday’s VT-LSU game. I always have a great time down there. There’s something liberating about leaving town for a few days. I get hung up in the daily grind — not that I’m busy, I just sink into a tarpit of methodical mediocrity — and travel allows me to jump start my creative/exploring side a bit.

TGAW has to do some work while we’re down there, and then has to leave for a business trip not 24 hours after we get back home. I don’t know how she does it. Well, besides the cocaine.

Embodiment of the whole

I’ve been really disappointed lately to see how two-dimensional I’ve allowed myself to appear to others. While this has happened many times with TGAW over the last few weeks as I’ve branched out of my comfort zone and heard her question my desire — my ability, even — to enjoy new things, it really hit me last night. I was telling a friend of mine about some ideas I had for what I’d do with my life if things don’t turn out the way I want them to, and he seemed flabbergasted at my thoughts.

“That’s not you AT ALL! You’d hate that!” he said.

Who the hell is he to tell me what I’d hate? But my temporary anger is misdirected. I’m the one that let people define me by a series of statistics like you’d find on the back of a baseball card. 6′0″. Hangs out at bars with friends. Loves football and sports in general. Electronics enthusiast.

What a pathetic definition of a human being. It’s flat. It’s a character in a poorly written series of books targeted at adolescent misfits. It’s arid and lifeless. A breathing skeleton with no flesh. I cheated pigeonholed myself!

But I know that that’s not the whole of who I am. I’m a 3D, living being. I can’t be manifested solely by the creature comforts I’ve taken solace in. My taglines should be amorphous. I should be composed of curves instead of right angles. Loves new experiences. Will try anything. Helps because he can. Not easily discouraged. Pisses excellence.

That’s a person with some meat on his bones. Some real character. That’s a guy who actively enjoys life instead of passively biding his time until he dies, like a slave sold on Jesus and the afterlife. That’s an exploiter of the loopholes of The Mundane Existence. That’s the light I want to emit. I feel like that person resides within me. I don’t blame others for not seeing it. I don’t fault them for filing me away alphabetically. But I don’t have to like it.

Lest I appear overly concerned with the beliefs of others, I would like to point out that my use of their opinions of me is like that of a mirror. A mirror won’t define me, it will only reflect what I have exposed, or in this case, have hidden.

Shhhh!

Well, I suppose my beginner’s luck streak of things to talk about has reached an abrupt halt.  I actually do have some great work rants, but I’m wrestling with whether they are appropriate to post here.  Probably not.  It’s like my Dad said when I was learning how to drive, “If you have to ask yourself whether you need to turn on your headlights, you need to turn on your headlights.”  If I’m wondering if it’s a bad idea to post about work, it’s a bad idea to post about work.

Once I’ve moved on, however, it’s going to be fair game.